Bending the truth in order to hurt others…

I really promised myself I would be focusing on me and me alone on this blog. I had to write about my own transition and my story but I really can’t help it. Let’s face it. I am 34 tomorrow, I am an old person own and if I can be frank, I DON’T MATTER in the flow of the universe. Whether I’m here now or not and whether I get the privilege of growing old happily or not has absolutely 0 effect on the future of the universe. What I’m doing is for me and for me alone BUT I really hate it when certain groups claiming to have the moral authority try to impose their views on others, especially when the targets are children.



Yes I am talking about the American College of Pediatricians. Sounds like a legit name right? Well I accidentally stumbled upon some publications that are endorsed and encouraged by them. This lovely article here talks about them.


For those tethered to biological reality, the self-evident truth that, prior to birth, people develop either “XY” or “XX” genetic markers and, as such, are objectively, and shall forever remain, either male or female, is as plain as blue is blue or pink is pink.

Indeed, notwithstanding the politically driven “LGBT” agenda that pretends otherwise, those who suffer with “gender dysphoria” disorder will stay, as born, either male or female, whether or not they play dress up, sterilize themselves and destroy healthy reproductive organs.

Hence, it’s of little surprise that, tragically, of those who put themselves through this imaginary “transition,” 41 percent will subsequently attempt suicide.

Still, this “progressive” socio-political scheme moves quickly from merely pitiable and delusional to ghastly and abusive when children are the targets – when selfish adults exploit sexually confused young people by feeding their “gender” delusion and pumping them full of dangerous hormones, or otherwise surgically mutilating and sterilizing them for life via so-called “gender reassignment surgery.”

In order to address the growing momentum of this harmful, gender-bending, pseudo-scientific quackery, a number of America’s leading medical experts on the subject have finally weighed in. “The American College of Pediatricians (ACPeds) urges educators and legislators to reject all policies that condition children to accept as normal a life of chemical and surgical impersonation of the opposite sex. Facts – not ideology – determine reality,” they warn.

Well as it turns out the American College of Pediatricians have nothing to do with doctors or medical sciences in general. They are a religious lobby group collecting money from religious organizations which they use to manipulate law makers. The issue in my opinion is the average population not involved in transgender issues might take them seriously and give them credit because of their name alone. They do sound legit until you look around.

Transgender is not something you make up, invent on decide upon. It just is. It’s bee there and it will be there. Some family members of mine assumed in my childhood that it was just phase and you know what??? It is. It rarely ever starts presenting itself before birth and ends promptly at moment of your death. There is lies the problem. While these people might believe they are acting in your best interest while trying to “fix” you by “therapy” or in some cases just praying it away, they drive innocent young people to suicide.

I believe being trans is similar to other conditions that come in a variety of severities and manifestations. Some people are debilitated by it while others,  such as myself, manage to go on for a long time and live a seemingly successful lifee until this gets a hold of 100% of their being. For some people, especially kids, being trans can and will in some cases consume their entire life and it doesn’t take a lot to push them to take their own lives as a desperate measure and that is not fair. Everyone deserves help and a fighting chance of growing in a wise adult so that they can one day pass their knowledge and wisdom onto others around them. I would like to think of humanity as the Borg from the Star Trek universe. A race acting as a collective. Unfortunately we are VERY far from that. Unfortunately as much as I hate to say it, religion has been very successful at separating and dividing us.

Religion belongs in a house of worship — not in the exam room where science should prevail




Is There Something Unique about the Transgender Brain?

Imaging studies and other research suggest that there is a biological basis for transgender identity


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Some children insist, from the moment they can speak, that they are not the gender indicated by their biological sex. So where does this knowledge reside? And is it possible to discern a genetic or anatomical basis for transgender identity? Exploration of these questions is relatively new, but there is a bit of evidence for a genetic basis. Identical twins are somewhat more likely than fraternal twins to both be trans.

Male and female brains are, on average, slightly different in structure, although there is tremendous individual variability. Several studies have looked for signs that transgender people have brains more similar to their experienced gender. Spanish investigators—led by psychobiologist Antonio Guillamon of the National Distance Education University in Madrid and neuropsychologist Carme Junqué Plaja of the University of Barcelona—used MRI to examine the brains of 24 female-to-males and 18 male-to-females—both before and after treatment with cross-sex hormones. Their results, published in 2013, showed that even before treatment the brain structures of the trans people were more similar in some respects to the brains of their experienced gender than those of their natal gender. For example, the female-to-male subjects had relatively thin subcortical areas (these areas tend to be thinner in men than in women). Male-to-female subjects tended to have thinner cortical regions in the right hemisphere, which is characteristic of a female brain. (Such differences became more pronounced after treatment.)

“Trans people have brains that are different from males and females, a unique kind of brain,” Guillamon says. “It is simplistic to say that a female-to-male transgender person is a female trapped in a male body. It’s not because they have a male brain but a transsexual brain.” Of course, behavior and experience shape brain anatomy, so it is impossible to say if these subtle differences are inborn.

Other investigators have looked at sex differences through brain functioning. In a study published in 2014, psychologist Sarah M. Burke of VU University Medical Center in Amsterdam and biologist Julie Bakker of the Netherlands Institute for Neuroscience used functional MRI to examine how 39 prepubertal and 41 adolescent boys and girls with gender dysphoria responded to androstadienone, an odorous steroid with pheromonelike properties that is known to cause a different response in the hypothalamus of men versus women. They found that the adolescent boys and girls with gender dysphoria responded much like peers of their experienced gender. The results were less clear with the prepubertal children.

This kind of study is important, says Baudewijntje Kreukels, an expert on gender dysphoria at VU University Medical Center, “because sex differences in responding to odors cannot be influenced by training or environment.” The same can be said of another 2014 experiment by Burke and her colleagues. They measured the responses of boys and girls with gender dysphoria to echolike sounds produced by the inner ear in response to a clicking noise. Boys with gender dysphoria responded more like typical females, who have a stronger response to these sounds. But girls with gender dysphoria also responded like typical females.

Overall the weight of these studies and others points strongly toward a biological basis for gender dysphoria. But given the variety of transgender people and the variation in the brains of men and women generally, it will be a long time, if ever, before a doctor can do a brain scan on a child and say, “Yes, this child is trans.”




FRANCINE RUSSO is a veteran journalist, specializing in psychology and behavior. She is also a speaker and author of They’re Your Parents, Too! How Siblings Can Survive Their Parents Aging without Driving Each Other Crazy.

This article was originally published with the title “Where Does Gender Live in the Brain?”

Day 75 of HRT. PAIN IN THE CHEST, Who is Caitlyn Jenner and general ups and downs

I find it fascinating that it really doesn’t take long for your body to react to the shock of getting the correct hormones you should have been getting from nature a long time ago. I remember being so nervous about letting the first blue little pill (Not Viagra) dissolve under tongue, thinking I am sure to have a DVT because in minutes because I’m a hypochondriac and tend to fear even the smallest possibilities of side effects. Yet I survived and still here with the effects of estrogen slowly becoming obvious. Needless to say I’ve been staring in the mirror every morning and “touching” myself in certain areas, hoping an obvious change but that’s not how it works. In fact staring into the mirror only once very few weeks would work better but I still need to brush my hair and teeth and for both of those activities I need a mirror…..


At the 75 day mark I still don’t see anything visible but some people I only rarely meet have recently commented that my eyes and my face look different which could be caused my hormones but they are more than likely brought on by my regular exercising routine which is exclusively cardio. My sister and brother in law also pointed out that some of my features have changed but that might only be weight loss.

My hair is also growing slowly but surely and I’m really beginning to like it. I think weight loss, longer hair and hair free face from laser contribute more to my more “feminine” appearance than hormones but I tend to judge myself harshly.


Now onto the obvious changes first mental, than physical. Even though I am total hypochondriac and was fearing imminent death upon taking my first pill, I was overcome by a sort of zen moment shortly after. I had a sense of calm and confidence I never quite felt before. I am finally moving in the right direction. After nearly 2 years of therapy, roadblocks, doctors, phone calls, visits blah-blah-blah, the ship has finally set sail. The placebo effect is quite stunning actually…. For the first time in my dreams, blood and violence was replaced with laughter and “normal stuff”. I’ve had violent dreams almost very night for the majority of my life which always revolved around the same thing which is being found out and hurt. Those dreams were finally gone after about 25 years which is a big deal I thought.


I also jokingly remarked to my endocrinologist that I think they gave me the wrong pill. Instead of Estrogen I probably received and have been popping serotonin inhibitors. I now smile. … A lot. Instead of dreading the future, I am now quite excited about it.


As far as the physical effects are concerned, in about a week or so I noticed that something was different in the chest area, more specifically around my nipples. All of a sudden I realized they were kind of hard in a way as if I was cold. As it turnes out, within 2 weeks of estrogen I could feel them developing. The nipple “hardness” turned quite sensitive first,then painful and I slowly developed a lump under the left nipple first, then under the right. Despite my old age, I might be lucky in the genetics department as my left (:)) breast became so obvious in only a few weeks that going into the men’s change room feels very awkward now. The right side took a while to start catching up but it’s now definitely on its way. Speaking of breast development and pain, I kind of shrugged at others when they complained to breast pain, thinking to myself “how bad could it be??” REALLY BAD. Stuff touching it brings me to tears. I finally broke down a few days ago and bought a sports bra which really helps while running. Tenderness with wobbling makes for a really painful experience while running.


In a peculiar way I envy others who claim mood swings, tiredness and other physical symptoms, as I have been spared of those which is likely the case due to my work out regimen. I am now more active than I have ever been before because I am fighting my weight and I can tell you, estrogen definitely does not help with that.


There have been quite a few developments that aren’t specifically related to HRT which includes me being outed by a work associate to his co-workers without asking me first but I’m not at all upset by it as I knew that group would be OK. We’ve known each other for 6 years almost and developed a great relationship so I didn’t suspect I’d get any hostility and I turned out to be correct. They were surprised and then commented on how brave I am and how hard it must have been to hide myself all these years. I also had another incident at a client’s place. I have not met this person in the last 6 months or so once my visit over, he pulled me aside and apologize for being so direct and asked. “Are you doing a Caitlyn Jenner thing? Because if you are that’s fine, I’m just wondering”. I could see his expression change upon finishing his question. He immediately changed his mind and now regretted asking. I was in a hurry so I just smiled and says it’s a long story and don’t have time to get into it now and that’s where we left it.


I also made a great friend whom I’ve known for a while but me coming out to her made us much closer and now I can’t even imagine myself without her. I feel like I have someone I can share my deepest secrets with, she will never judge or drag me down. She is a great person who can listen and talk really well. She is a great ally and friend and I’m so grateful me met.

Also, I think I can finally stop looking at wigs because I’m making peace with my own hair.

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Let me know what you think.



Gatekeepers vs. Informed Consent: Who Decides When a Trans Person Can Medically Transition?

Gatekeeper or guide?

While not every transgender person seeks to transition physically—whether through hormone therapy or other means like surgery—when one does, who should be allowed to make the decision? Is it a clear matter of personal choice? Or should doctors or therapists have a say?

In recent decades, transgender patients were expected to undergo extensive talk therapy in order to access medical interventions. Under this approach, also known as the “gatekeeper” model, the ultimate decision about who was or was not a candidate for treatments ranging from hormones to surgery rested with the therapist. More recently, transgender advocates have argued against what they see as red tape, favoring a system of “informed consent” in which, following appropriate education and advisement about the treatment in question, the ultimate decision regarding treatment choice rests with the patient alone. The informed consent model has been adopted at many centers that provide hormone replacement therapy (HRT), including the Planned Parenthood locations that offer it. Still, other providers continue to use the older model, requiring patients to produce a letter from a therapist regarding their psychological fitness before they can be evaluated medically as candidates for treatment.

This divide among providers mirrors a tension within the larger trans healthcare advocacy community. On one side there are those who wish to de-medicalize the experience of transgender individuals to the greatest possible extent—these advocates generally see the role of medical professionals as providing the requested treatment to the consumer and staying out of the way. Others see medical practitioners as playing an important role in helping to prepare trans patients for the consequences of their decisions, guiding them away from uninformed choices or spur-of-the-moment impulses. While both sides ultimately want trans folks to get the care they need, the question of how much intervention is helpful is very much open.

From the perspective of advocates for transgender rights—many of whom have themselves pursued HRT and/or other medical interventions to help their bodies conform to their inner self-conception—setting up gatekeepers between transgender patients and the treatments they feel they need is a problem. “To me, a gatekeeper in the traditional sense is kind of like a check box of things you need to say, or think, or be, in order to be what they think is appropriate for someone to start hormone therapy, or have surgery, or whatever,” explained Marti Abernathey, a trans woman and the founder of Trans Advocate, a news and commentary website. Abernathey went on to describe the narrow stereotypes that medical professionals once expected trans women to conform to in order to merit a medical transition: They would need to be sexually attracted to men, for example, and they should be very feminine. Informed consent sidesteps these kinds of biases.

“Informed consent is a medical provider laying out your risks and benefits, and the most current information they have about those risks and benefits, and giving you the choice about what to do with your own body. For me this is a basic human right, a matter of bodily autonomy,” Abernathey said.

Over the past few decades, the strictness of the standards that medical providers use to determine suitability for treatments such as HRT have been relaxed substantially. WPATH, the World Professional Association for Transgender Health, an organization of medical professionals involved in transgender care, publishes and promulgates the Standards of Care and Ethical Guidelines (SOC), a document which is widely used by medical professionals to inform and guide their practice with transgender patients. I spoke with Dr. Jamison Green, the current president of WPATH, about the why providers even need professional standards and the evolving role of informed consent in ethical practice.

Informed consent is a part of every step of the way in treatment of transgender patients. The SOC don’t exist to gatekeep. But if you want cross-sex hormones and/or surgery, and if you don’t have a body that is considered ill, that is considered problematic. You can’t get medical treatments without a diagnosis, and you certainly can’t get insurance to cover it. The system we have says that you need to have a diagnosis in order to get treatment.

WPATH was once known as the Harry Benjamin International Gender Dysphoria Association. Under that name the Standards of Care were stricter, more concerned with guiding practitioners through the process of deciding who was “trans enough” for treatment to be indicated. Dr. Green pointed to the progress that had been made toward putting patients in the driver’s seat, though with a caveat regarding surgery:

In the past, the belief was that people couldn’t make these decisions on their own, and the mental health screening could be brutal. It could go 2 or 3 years before you’d have any access to [hormone] therapy. The SOC acknowledge that it’s unethical to try to change someone’s gender identity, and they don’t require a year or more of therapy before you can get hormones—one or two visits is fine, as long as the therapist you’re seeing is comfortable. This is a complex and difficult thing, and if someone wants surgery it can be important that they slow down just a bit and think about what they’re doing. And, surgeons don’t feel qualified to evaluate who will be a good candidate for surgery—they want a therapist to do that.

Dr. Green, who is himself transgender, doesn’t believe that having ethical standards for providers to follow is incompatible with an informed consent model of treatment. It’s just part of achieving a system of care that meets the needs of patients and providers alike. Since the transgender community includes many individuals with mental health issues such as depression, as well as minor children who are not legally able to consent to medical procedures on their own, some version of the SOC will likely be needed for the foreseeable future.

Even so, the consensus of medical providers who work with transgender patients has shifted a long way in favor of self-determination, and it may well shift further. There do, however, remain questions of emphasis. Although it’s rare for patients to regret transitioning, it can and does happen. There are also transgender patients who do not regret transitioning, but who come to regret the specific decisions that they made, the speed of the process, which providers they trusted, or how they dealt with their transition emotionally. For advocates like Abernathy, the potential for regret is not as important as the principle of access and control over one’s body—she believes that the existence of a few people who regret making a decision shouldn’t prevent adults from freely making the same decision as long as they’re fully informed about the potential risks and benefits.


Professionals like Dr. Green and the members of his organization have a different concern: making sure that patients and providers are protected from negative outcomes that could have been avoided.

Finding the right balance won’t be easy. Although it’s true that every treatment requires a diagnosis, in most cases patients are unlikely to encounter a provider who is skeptical about their self-reported symptoms. A man experiencing erectile dysfunction, for instance, does not need to undergo months of therapy or provide proof of his lack of function in order to get a script for Viagra. Although the wishes of the patient have gradually been given more weight in the SOC, it’s not clear whether medicine will come to see being transgender as straightforward, like having erectile dysfunction, or complicated, like having a psychological condition. For transgender individuals, the desire to avoid the stigma of mental illness can make this subject very emotionally fraught. But in the end, the risk that certain people may impulsively or erroneously embark on treatments with permanent effects must be evaluated rationally, and weighed against the potential harm to patients for whom the requirements are onerous or whose treatment is needlessly delayed.

Article by Vanessa Vitiello

Accelerate gender parity

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