I am full time and can never go back, thinking about…… yes the knife but its complicated. Oh yes paperwork and MONEY, swear (pronoun jar)

So I have been full time for 2 week now and I really feel amazing. 2 years ago I didn’t think that this was possible. I feel free. Can’t really find a better way to put it. I am very genuinely excited about every single day despite issues with my business, dealing with VERY high maintenance clients and a bunch of other stuff. I feel like nothing can drag me down. Instead of dreading the future, I can hardly wait for it. Bring it on. It’s hard to believe I’ve been on E for 9 months now, feels like it was all yesterday when I anxiously popped my first pill then spent the next 3 hours panicking about what a DVT will feel like.  Continue reading “I am full time and can never go back, thinking about…… yes the knife but its complicated. Oh yes paperwork and MONEY, swear (pronoun jar)”

Really awesome male fail yesterday. It happens everyday now but it was especially satisfying.


So I am a total loser and pre-ordered the iPhone 7 roughly 3 minutes after it went on sale and got to pick it up yesterday. Of course there was a lineup at the apple store in the mall, full of lifeless nerds, such as myself. My male mode is not that convincing anymore really…. Continue reading “Really awesome male fail yesterday. It happens everyday now but it was especially satisfying.”

This bathroom thing is really becoming silly….

Monty Python couldn’t have written it better than how it is unfolding in the US. For some reason people seem to think that bathroom laws will give sexual predators a way in. Do we really think a sexual predator needs a law or permission??? Trans people have been pooping beside us forever, without you ever having known about it.



I really liked this part of Bill Maher’s show. Well said once again by Dan Savage and in fact by everyone…..




Out and about…. – Updated and yes I have survived

Today really is my first day of being out and about during the day and interacting with people. If I survive, I’ll update this post….

I am pretty sure I will but wish me luck anyway.

Well not only did I survive, but I actually had a really good and happy day. I had to meet 2 people in the middle of a big city then went for coffee with a friend and had 0 issues. I’m not entirely convinced I passed 100% but I got madamed consistently and didn’t feel like I got any weird looks, or looks of any kind for that matter. I was very happy and very tired at the end of the day but it has really been a great experience.

Is someone not accepting selfish?

So far my only negative feedback I got about transitioning has been from one family member.

Frankly I kinda knew that would be the case but what I do find worrisome is the fact that generally people that either don’t get or accept you, only seem to care about how they feel about the whole thing, without ever asking how you are doing or feeling or is transitioning making you happy(er). Sometimes I think that’s rather selfish. It’s all about how I feel about you “bending” the norm. If it makes me feel uncomfortable, it shouldn’t be so.

I find that the majority of the time, people who come out to unsupportive family members or friends, all seem to say the same thing. Generally the feedback is the same. You will not be successful, you won’t have a job, nobody will like you and so on and how they don’t like the whole thing and not because they genuinely worry about your well being, but rather their own.

Is that harmful behaviour? I think it might be, especially when it’s about youth. I find as I’m getting older, I care less and less about what people think. It is my job to make myself happy and not too many people can help me with that. I also tend to think that being trans or whatever else and coming out is a good BS filter. Generally speaking, people not capable of accepting who you are, should be excluded from your life. Of course it’s not always possible due to financial, family or business obligations but those not capable of being supportive around you, need to go.